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[toomuchheart]

Shortly after I was resurrected the first time, Dean Winchester and I decided to summon the archangel that killed me in order to obtain information. It was highly likely that the encounter would end in my death, and when Dean asked me what I would like to do on my last night, somehow he found out I was a virgin. Convinced that he was not going to let me die again in this state, he took me to the local brothel.

It was most disconcerting.

He selected a girl named Chastity -- she did not suit her name in the least -- and gave me some money for the transaction. Then Chastity and I went to the back. After a brief time spent with her, I was able to discern that the reasons for her choosing this lifestyle is some kind of ill relationship with her father. When I expressed this to her, she had an extremely adverse reaction. Dean and myself were forcibly removed from the premises and asked to never return.

They were not very polite about it.

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[toomuchheart]

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[neveragain.livejournal.com]

Life Lesson #381: Don't talk to prostitutes about who they are outside or before the fucking brothel.

Most of them have a list of fucking issues a mile fucking long, but you don't fucking talk to them about it.

[toomuchheart]

I understand that now. It was not something I was warned of before hand.

[theacheisleft.livejournal.com]

[Lucky is laughing to himself, but he won't express that amusement on paper. He's nice.]

Hey, it sounds like you were not exactly ready to become not a virgin and that's okay. It's not going to be for everyone, but that does sound like an experience.

Weirdly enough, my dad actually grew up in a brothel.

I don't know how that's weird or why I admitted it but there you go.

[toomuchheart]

... That must have been an odd experience.

[he's not going to address his virginity, or is inability to lose it, okay? It's an awkward topic.]

[theacheisleft.livejournal.com]

Yeah, they couldn't stay at home anymore so they moved in with his aunt, I think.

Him and my aunt Bobby. The brothel environment was much better than their home environment at that time.

[toomuchheart]

... That is worrisome.

[enoughtocarry.livejournal.com]

[There's a small pause.

The fact Dean isn't here makes the story a lot less ... everything than it would be at any other time, but just seeing an entry from Cas is more reassuring than Sam thought.]

Sounds like Dean, alright.

[toomuchheart]

[there's a small sad pause at this]

I believe he felt he meant well.

[enoughtocarry.livejournal.com]

He just has to go about it in his own special Dean way. [There's a pause, too. It hurts to talk about his brother, so he moves the topic away from that.]

Are you back?

[toomuchheart]

Yes. I returned to Chicago earlier this week.

[enoughtocarry.livejournal.com]

Welcome back.

[toomuchheart]

Thank you.

[a long pause]

I know you wished to speak about your future.

[enoughtocarry.livejournal.com]

[an equally long pause, since he wishes to and he doesn't but Dean and everything and is he saved? And does it matter? And--]

I gotta know what happens, Cas. [Also, locked.]

Crowley saw fit to contact me over the journals.

[toomuchheart]

locked }

[there's a long pause at the mention of Crowley. It's something he can deal with at a later time.]

We can meet and discuss your future. It is not all pleasent, however.

[enoughtocarry.livejournal.com]

locked }

I've lived enough and know enough from where I come from to not expect pleasant. It's not how it works.

[Not with Winchesters.]

[toomuchheart]

locked }

Would you like me to meet you somewhere?

[enoughtocarry.livejournal.com]

locked }

[inserts very remote bar address here.]

That work for you?

[thehighestwing.livejournal.com]

So are you still a virgin? :o

[Phoebe Donovan, ladies and gentlemen. Most innopportune of angels.]

[toomuchheart]

[there is a long, long, LONG pause here, before Cas finally writes an answer]

Yes.

[thehighestwing.livejournal.com]

Totally okay, Mr. Castiel.

Sex is awesome! I should know. But only those that want to have it should have it. ;)

[toomuchheart]

... I see.

[ how ... does he even respond to this]

[thehighestwing.livejournal.com]

Rock on, angel dude!

[... there is no real way to respond to anything she says. Apologies, Cas.]

[toomuchheart]

... Thank you.

[thehighestwing.livejournal.com]

:]

[starryeyed-cass.livejournal.com]

[Is that that the sound of Cassie giggling to herself in her room?

No. No it's not. Not in the slightest, nope. Not at all.]


Oh, Cas.

Of all the things you've done. I would never expect this.

[She is totally not still giggling.]

But yeeeah, not a good thing. About telling her about her Dad.
Some things in our heads are private and we don't want to really be reminded of it.

[toomuchheart]

I understand that now. I was still learning about humans then.

[starryeyed-cass.livejournal.com]

Ahh, I see!

Well, don't worry about this too much. I'm pretty sure you're not alone on the whole 'bad experience in a brothel' thing.

But yeah, not the nicest of things to blurt out.

[toomuchheart]

The Rift makes this very inconvenient.

[mrkingofhell.livejournal.com]

[Crowley is totally just laughing his head off. This is just

He can't even]


Now this is just priceless.

Although, how typically you to balls up a quickie with a whore.
Disappointing!

[toomuchheart]

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This is not your concern, Crowley.

[mrkingofhell.livejournal.com]

My, my, a bit touchy, are we?